Wednesday, December 24, 2014

5 Months Old - Harper's First Christmas

Merry Christmas Eve!

Harper is 5 months old today! Time is flying by faster than I can comprehend. I'm definitely enjoying my break from school and doing as much with Harper and family as I can.






Here's an update on Harper:

- She loves walks in the stroller, sitting like a big girl (no more car seat adaptor to the stroller).
- Officially found her feet and loves them!
- Trying so hard to crawl! She's mastered getting onto her hands and knees but can't figure out where to go from there.
- She's also trying to sit up.
- She is mastering grasping things in front of her and bringing them straight to her mouth.
- So called "sleep regression" is still in full effect - waking up 2-4 times throughout the night and only talking 1-2 naps throughout the day. Man were we spoiled with a baby who slept 12+ hours through the night...
- Car rides are improving - she still doesn't love it, but now the worst part is buckling her into the carseat. Once we're driving she tends to calm down.

Trying to crawl!

Trying to sit!

Hello feet!

First time riding in the stroller like a big girl!

She doesn't look happy, but really she's just woke up


Christmas Arts and Crafts!

Christmas Arts and Crafts!

Christmas Arts and Crafts!

Finally got around to making Harper's newborn shadow box!


Recently we also experimented with foods. I've always been determined to exclusively breastfeed for 6 months - but she shows such a huge interest in food while we eat, so we thought we'd give it a shot. I mashed up an avocado and tried that first - she gagged from the texture and threw up. Tried the with sweet potato another day, same results. Finally, we mixed breastmilk with rice cereal - and she just wasn't having it. No throwing up, but gagged and wanted it out of her mouth immediately. Guess we're waiting another month to try again. 

As we all know, Christmas is tomorrow, and this is Harper's first Christmas. Last Christmas, we invited our parents over and announced to them we were expecting a baby. I was only a little over 9 weeks pregnant, so we wanted to publicly keep it hush hush until 12 weeks.






This year I will be working on Christmas. It breaks my heart to have to work on my baby's first Christmas. I cried at the thought of it for months after learning I had to work it (and to be honest, I still cry thinking about it). Now I go back and forth - being upset one minute and realistic the next. Realistic in that I gave it some thought, talked with family and realized Harper will not remember this Christmas (or really any for the next few years).  She won't know if we celebrate Christmas a day early, a day late or in a month. What she will know, feel and remember is that she is loved.  Knowing all of this does make it a bit more bearable to be away for the day. 

But then again I think back to how hard I fought to have her. All the medications, surgery, ultrasounds, etc. I think back to how happy I was last Christmas knowing I was pregnant and a year from then I'd be celebrating Christmas with that baby. How all I've ever wanted in this world was a baby of my own and to be a mother. I think about how I grew her in my womb, pushed her out and have spent every single day and night since then with her. I wake up in the middle of the night and nurse her. I hold her when there's nothing else that will calm her. I am her mother. And as dramatic and silly as it may sound, I feel like this Christmas she is being ripped from my arms and taken away, and I will miss out on being with her on her first Christmas. 

Yet, I know she'll be excited to see me when I get home later that night. And I really should just grow up and realize how lucky I truly am. That I have a daughter who is loved by so many and so well taken care of. That I have a healthy daughter. That I have a job that I love. That I have a supportive husband.

Laying in bed last night it hit me why I was so upset - while this is her first Christmas, a Christmas she won't remember, this is also MY first Christmas as a mother, a Christmas I will remember for as long as I live. Plain and simple, a mother should with her baby on their first Christmas together. 

But when all is said and done, she will have four Christmas' this year! We celebrated with my Mom, brother, sister in law, niece and nephews this weekend. We will be visiting my Dad, step Mom and other family members today, Christmas Eve. Then after (hopefully) visiting me at the hospital on Christmas, Phil and Harper will be celebrating with his parents and brother. Finally, the day after Christmas, it will just be Harper, Phil and I. We'll sit around the tree, open presents in our pajamas and take pictures. A stress free, relaxing day with this little baby that I've prayed for and wish for, for so long. She is certainly the best gift ever and I truly do treasure her every single day.

Christmas 2014




Harper and her cousins


Merry Christmas to everyone! May you have a wonderful holiday celebrating it with friends and family. Hug those around you. Tell people you love them. Eat and drink without guilt. Smile and be happy. Take pictures. Enjoy the little moments.

 Wishing you good health, blessings, and happiness in 2015!





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